Not me
Don’t follow me
I’m not that guy
I tried recently to be and I failed
To love without reserve
Always intending to help and bless
I wanted to pour all that God had taught
Into the one who had my heart
But I rediscovered how imperfect I am
I hoped to receive as well as give
I wanted love back
It was too much to ask for
Yes, too much to ask for
I was not called to receive love
Only to give it.
It was not my mission to receive blessings
But to give it
I was warned and did not heed
That this person longed for God
And not for me
Not my kid, not my friend
But both of these to God
I learned my lesson deeply
I will not return to that land
I shall be fully known by none
I will share what God has given me
But I will never be so open to hurt again
Never will I hope for a friendship so deep
Expecting deep love brings deep hurt
No child to me, by a will not mine
Seeing no face, but a disappearing back
Laughter that once healed me
Replaced by silence
Never had a best friend
Never been number one
Just not meant for me
Very clear is the reason is me
It is not others I can’t trust
They are all the same
Only so far, only so much
Never best friends, only so far
Yet I have one who loves me
Closer than a brother
One who knows all about me
Because He wants to
Only Jesus can and does
Others can have their best friends
None will be mine
None but Jesus
My best friend is God
Only He can love me
Like I was designed to be loved
Only He likes me
Like I was designed to be liked
So only He can know me
It is what is meant to be
In Jesus, in God
It is want He wants
For me
IHS 12-3-16