Matthew 25:30 – And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’
Job 20:6a – Complete darkness is held in reserve for his treasures, and unfanned fire will devour him.
The Enigma
It’s so dark.
My eyes are straining for a vapor of light.
Nothing that would provide clear visibility,
Just a modicum of light that my eyes could see,
So that I would know I’m not blind.
This darkness is a suffocating animated blanket of air,
That holds innumerable nightmares and uncounted imaginings.
It whispers uncertainties in your ear and shouts them at your face.
While my mind fights the taunts,
My body fights the imaginings.
There are no threats, no voices.
There is nothing crawling on my skin,
Nothing biting the back of my legs,
Nothing next to me.
Nothing, no-one.
Animated darkness, it is a perpetual, constant anxiety.
It is pain from nowhere, from nothing.
It is an empty pain which disables the mind to fool the body.
I am alone, really alone.
No-one, not a friend or a lover to comfort me.
Not even an enemy to feel comfort in the hate.
An emptiness in the spirit,
a realization of no hope.
Complete despair.
No sanity, no rest.
Nothing, no-one,
Not even God.
Nothing no-one,
Not God,
Not even myself.
Just darkness which eats through the skin like fire.
Not physical, but spiritual.
A darkness which allows for no recovery or refuge.
You can’t close your eyes to escape it,
It’s there,
Always there.
There you are,
There you stay.
No change will come.
You and darkness are one.
There is no distinguishing between it and you.
You have no identity.
You just exist.
You can know nothing with certainty,
Yet fear everything.
No rest, no protection.
There is only one thought which recurs to haunt you.
One thought of sanity and forever an enigma.
Where is the Light?
Psalm 150:6 – Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Praise the Lord!
Micah 7:7 – But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Savior; my God will Hear me.
Micah 6:8 – He has shown you, Oh man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you, but to do justly, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God.
Numbers 6:24-26 – The Lord bless you and keep you; 25 The Lord make His face shine on you and be gracious to you; 26 The Lord turn His face toward you and give you peace.