Psalm 107:1-2a, 43 – Oh give thanks to the Lord, for He is good, for his steadfast love endures forever! Let the redeemed of the Lord say so, Whoever is wise, let him attend to these things; let them consider the steadfast love of the Lord.
Jeremiah 31:3 – The Lord appeared to us in the past, saying: “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.
I confess that I am wildly, absolutely, completely, with total abandon in love with Jesus Christ my Savior and Lord. I wish my words could sufficiently relate to you the wonder of Him!
I have always been loved, though I never deserved it. My parents loved me, my grandparents loved me. I even had a couple aunts and uncles who loved me. Born into the Catholic faith I was blessed to have an aunt and uncle to swear before God that they would always love me and be there for me, and they always have been, even to this day. Yet, though the love of all these could warm my heart they were never enough. They couldn’t be, they were never meant to be.
With all the love I received I also loved all these…and so many more relatives and friends. I always loved. Loving them was great. Yet, though I sincerely loved all of them, I could never love them as much as I should. I could never be unselfish enough to love them with a love they were designed for. I couldn’t, I was never designed to be able to.
As I grew, I thought that maybe I could have a best friend that could could be so close that the friendship would bring the love and peace I knew I needed. I had many good friends, but never a best friend. All my friends had closer friends. Though some were sincere friends, they could never be the kind of friend I was searching for. They couldn’t be, I couldn’t be to them, they and I were never meant to be.
I thought maybe if I could find a girl to love me as I would love her, then this search for love and peace would find a happy ending. At times I thought that I would never find someone to love me in such a way. No girl would want to love me and be my best friend and to stick with me through good times and bad times. I, several times, considered just ending it. A few times. But I didn’t because I couldn’t do that to my mom. I figured my Dad was strong and would recover (I was wrong) but my mom, I knew it would be an irreversible blow to her. So, I managed, barely at times, to not end it.
The Lord brought me a girl who loved me. I finally had someone who loved me and wanted to be my best friend. She would stick with me through good times and bad (and she has). She selected me as the guy she would spend her life with. She loved me as much as a girl could love a guy. I thought that her love would fulfill my need for love and forever I would I have peace and happiness. For a while that was true. Though her love grew stronger I realized that her love and friendship, though wonderful, was not what my heart ultimately longed for. Something was missing. Though we loved each with all that we were, though we made each other laugh and gave each other peace, I knew that something was missing. I didn’t know what that something was. We were boyfriend and girlfriend, then fiancés, and then husband and wife, but something was still missing. We were lovers, we were one, but for her and me, we could not be the ultimate fulfillment that both of us needed and wanted. We were not enough for each other. We couldn’t be. We were never meant to be.
What I didn’t know was that Jesus, who has loved me from an everlasting past and will love me into an everlasting future, wanted to be the one to fulfill the need for the certain kind of love I was looking for. He had called to me my whole life. He started calling to me before I was. How, because He knew me before I was, loved me before I was, and knew He would love me forever and ever. He knew that, although I would live in enemy territory, that He would love me and provide the awakening touch of love as He would die for me. Then, by the power of the triune and unified God, He rose to create the path to come home. I found out the great love of Jesus for me. He designed me and knew my exact make up and exactly what I needed. He loved me so much, before I was born, that He put a homing beacon in me to keep calling me to Him. He did not make the homing beacon so loud that it would overpower me, but that it would continuously send a loving impulse to my heart and mind that would release an urge to seek what could be found and what would satisfy. Finally I followed the call and found the One who loved me as only He could. Now, I am fully loved. Now at peace. Now I am satisfied. In fact, His love has made the love of all others much more beautiful as seen through His love. Now I have found the only One who could love me as I sought. He is the one who was meant to satisfy the call that was within me. Only Jesus. He and I, I and Him, He and the Father and the Spirit and me with them. It is an eternal love, joy and oneness that will never die. How blessed I am. I love to confess that I am wildly, absolutely, completely, in total abandon in love with Jesus Christ my Savior and Lord. I wish my words could sufficiently relate to you the wonder of Him! The best I can do is to tell, as best I as I can, how wonderful He is to me and how He wants that relationship with you. Not in part, but in full. Every day and every minute He loves you. If you have this relationship with Him, well then, you know. If you don’t, follow the homing beacon within that leads to Him. You will not regret it! Praise our God! Thank you Jesus! Praise our God!
Psalm 150:6 – Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Praise the Lord!
Micah 7:7 – But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me.
Micah 6:8 – He has shown You, O man, what is good; And what does the Lord require of You but to do justly, to love mercy, And to walk humbly with Your God.